I'm barely breathing

Listening to music has been really hard for me lately. The lyrics of every song seem to be about heart break, lost love etc....  These lyrics ring true to how I feel right now. I'm barely breathing. That's how I feel. I feel grief stricken. I could barely get out of bed today. I cried myself to sleep again last night. Puffy eyes again this morning. Why is this so hard? 

I don't want to burden anyone with how sad I really feel. I think about suicide EVERY DAY. I keep thinking I can't do something permanent for temporary sadness. But it doesn't feel temporary. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. I don't know how much more I can take. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like a zombie walking through life faking a smile and "I'm fine" when people ask how I am doing. Nobody wants to hear that I'm empty

inside and I want to die.