Triggers

It's crazy the different things that trigger me. Life flight just brought in a patient and it flooded me with memories of St. George when I did fixed wing. I really miss doing it. I even had a crazy idea of selling everything and moving back to St. George so I can fly with fixed wing again. 

I feel a deep sadness of not appreciating what I had when I had it. I really was happy with Jerrid and I really thought we were going to grow old together. I enjoyed living in St. George and I finally had started making deep friendships before I left. I know it would be too painful to live there again but the thought really crossed my mind.  I know Julie would hire me again. 

I really hope to make new memories and find happiness again. I feel like I'm stuck under a black cloud and I hope to see the sunshine again. I just hate this feeling.